Courage is fear that has said its prayers.

Our story

I was Tumbling, as usual, and I came across Lauren’s blog. I don’t really even remember why I clicked on it, but for some reason, it drew me in. I started following her. I was reading her about me and saw it said “forever alone.” I sent her an anon message on November 22, 2011 that said…

“Although I barely know you, just from the sincere smile on your face on your home page, I can tell you are such a beautiful person inside and out. You are stunning. I don’t like how you have “forever alone” in your about me though. I can’t imagine someone like you being stuck without someone you deserve for the rest of your life. Take it off. <3”

She said

“I can’t even stop smiling right now. This is seriously the sweetest and most genuine thing I’ve probably ever gotten in my ask. You just made my night 100% better. You are incredible. <3”

After that, she was talking about how people always hurt her and I sent her another anon message that said…

“‘When people hurt you over and over, think of them like sand paper. They may scratch and hurt you a bit, but in the end, you end up polished and they end up useless.’ -Chris Colfe” 

She replied with “I love you.”

Never did I think those words would ever be spoken between us or that I would end up falling so in love with this girl. From that moment, I came off anon, started talking to her, and gave her my number. We talked almost every day. It got so routine, that we fell asleep with each other on the phone at night. I knew I had feelings for her like I never have before, but I didn’t think someone 886 miles away that I’ve only been talking to for a month, not even, could muster up those feelings. I fell for her, hard.

One night on the phone, as we were sitting in silence, I couldn’t handle it anymore. My heart was beating so fast, my hands were shaking, I could hardly breathe and I said it. “Lauren…I love you.” She replied with a “WHAT!?” I thought it was over. I ruined it. What was I thinking? I told her “I love you. I really think I love you.” She was silent for a few seconds (the longest seconds of my life) and told me that she has thought about saying it about 30 times throughout our entire conversation. It made me feel so much better. A few minutes went by talking about other random things and at the end of my sentence, she said “I love you.” Just hearing those words come out of her mouth sent chills down my spine. I knew she was it.

We started dating January 9, 2012. I couldn’t be happier.

Lauren, if you are reading this, I want you to know that I love you with all of my heart. Distance will never separate us. You mean more to me than anyone ever has, and I never want to change that. Every time I look at you or talk to you, my entire body shuts down and you’re the only one that matters. You can calm me down in seconds, make me smile even faster, and make me feel so loved without even saying a word. You are my angel. I can’t see myself with anyone else but you. I love you.

Here’s to our oovoo dates for many months to come, until I can finally hold you in my arms.

3/18/12 Update

I flew to you on the 9th of this month and stayed with you for a whole week. Although it was the first time we met, I felt like I had known you for years and I was just coming home. Everything was perfect. I don’t want to spend my life with anyone else but you. My love for you has grown like you wouldn’t believe. I can’t wait for you to come here in June, baby girl.