December 2008
new years eve party at my brother’s house tonight is going to be the best start to my year. i get to spend it with alex. i get my first new years kiss. i get to drink. i get to just be myself and not worry about anything. i’m already super excited!
tonight-wednesday
I WILL BE IN TAMPA WITH MISS ALEXX GRUNBECK! I’m so damn excited. I haven’t seen her in months. I get to give her her Christmas present :D I hope she likes it.
New Years eve party @ my brother’s should be fun. I probably won’t have a kiss… how lame.
christmas eve & day
BOY WHAT HELL THAT WAS! everyone usually goes to my grandma’s for christmas eve and i swear every year it gets worse. it’s not about love or life at all in my family. it’s about who is making the most money, who’s running the best business, who has the most kids while still paying the bills and having 5,000 dollars left over each month, who’s doing the most with their...
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alex is moving out soon. this is going to suck.
I have horrible luck.
I went in the attic to get Christmas bulbs down so I could put them on the palm trees in my yard to put the finishing touches on the right side by the pond. Well as I was walking down the steps with them in my arms, I fell. I fell hard. I landed right on my back - bulbs went flying into the air and came crashing down on the tile steps in the front. Glass was everywhere. So I crawled in the house...
I always:
-put more into my relationships than the other person.
-say yes.
-think i’m the less pretty one.
-assume people are talking about me.
-second guess myself.
-get nervous around guidance couselors.
-bite my nails.
-say never way too much.
“I think it would be well, and proper, and obedient, and pure, to grasp your one...”
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once i get the money...
i want to put myself back into dance. when i took dance for 9 years, i was at my best. i was the happiest. dancing never let me down. i could do that for hours. i think i might get into tap. that one wore me out the most. i’d love to get back into it. i need something to do. i need motivation and confidence again <3!
i'm having a horrible weekend.
alex and i are…well i don’t even know anymore. we got in the biggest fight ever last night. names were thrown around and it was just bad. i cried. our relationship is DEFINITELY down the drain now. that’s for sure. i didn’t do anything wrong - that’s what gets me. she was my best friend. i just can’t deal with everything she’s throwing at me. i feel like...
victoria's secret fashion show
WAS BRILLIANT!
I LOVED IT! I watch it every year and man, this one was by far the best.
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I work tonight again from 6-10pm. I’m so happy with this job. I really hope I keep this for a long long time. Alex went with his sister and mom tonight. My mom and Rick went out to buy presents. Today was really good….surprisingly.
If you want to be completely honest, sing.
